Perhaps I saw it coming and that’s why I’ve been in an especially weird funk lately. Perhaps my mind sort of knew that something unpleasant must have happened since (till this evening) I still hadn’t received my last letter even though its close to May already. My mind subconsciously started yearning for some form of mourning, and yesterday, I got some mopey Mariah Carey songs to tide over that strange numbness I was feeling…even though I really had no clue why I was feeling so down, especially since the prior days were spent being overly enthusiastic about life in general.
So, today marks the end of my journey on the US undergrad road of complete and utter depression. I would love to say it was a journey with ups and downs, but to be honest, the only joy I can remember having had through that entire experience was from my misguided and foolhardy obsession with a school completely out of my league. Pathetic, no, that the one moment of clarity I’ve had in my 17 ( almost 18 ) years resulted from illusions of grandeur and silly confidence?
Anyway, good bye shoddy path of potholes and tripwire! I won’t be missing you.
Kenneth said,
April 19, 2008 at 12:57 pm
Don’t be so down. Hang out with me in the UK. We can go drink and end up being alcoholics.
James said,
April 25, 2008 at 2:45 pm
US sucks!
Serena said,
May 8, 2008 at 2:45 pm
no worries..there’s always grad school =)
i love mariah carey.